Thursday, January 7, 2016

personal update 2016

This is my first time here this year, so I want to wish everyone a great year, with good health and much happiness.

Things have been much the same with being in pain a good deal of the time.  I saw my plastic surgeon yesterday, and he said he could reverse the tram flap surgery in hopes this would relieve my pain.  He would also cut out a lot of the fat necrosis.

I don't know if this will actually help, and relieve me of pain, but I have to hope it will.

It's a not an overly long surgery, he said.  About two hours, and I would be in and out on the same day.  I'd have a couple of drains to deal with; not like I don't know what that's all about. Haven't set a date  yet.

Of course, this will leave me flat-chested and duly scarred.  After all I've been through.  Oh fucking well.

The insurance plan I had last year was cancelled at the end of the year, and I had to get a different one.   Lots more co-pays now for some reason, and the drug coverage sucks with a huge deductible.  I just went to get my pain medication filled, and they told me the cost was $380.  Needless to say, I can't get my medication.   It's not like the meds help a great deal, but they do something sometimes.  Now I am screwed.

So, that's all the mundane crap of my life.

I am just needing to start anew, pain free.  I can't go through another year like the last one.


  1. i am so sorry to hear this. i know what you mean about increased co-pays, we see them here too. can your local cancer society help you to identify financial help with meds? that is so unfair that pain meds should be a challenge or out of reach.

    i very much hope 2016 is a better one for you in every way. prayers sent your way.

  2. I so sorry you've had to endure all this. Just doesn't seem fair.

    I would suggest that if you have further surgery that you get a plastic surgeon close. I made the mistake of having my breast surgeon close and wound up very lumpy bumpy with significant scars. Women who have had a plastic surgeon close have reported smooth chests and pencil line scars. I wish I had known

    I will be thinking of you.

  3. What a way to start the new year. I feel your pain although not a cancer patient I have constant leg pain and still have not found out what it is. I am tired of going to doctors and getting wrong diagnosis...walking is unbearable but I push myself anyway....I try to see the good in everyday to keep my mind off it...I am blessed to have a great job, a wonderful hubby, 5 children, 9 grandchildren....and just do what I have to in order to get through the day....good luck with your surgery....

  4. Come to MI--get a medical marijuana card for about $85 bucks then stop at almost any corner in Detroit and you will find a half dozen dispensaries with edibles and smokables--legal weed for chronic pain is our new cottage industry here. I get that horsecrap about medical care and costs, i am fortunate to get mine now from the VA but my wife's is 1/5 of our pre tax income every month just to have the plastic card--then the other crap kicks in. This is why we need Medicare from cradle to grave.

  5. That trans flap is tough, I know a lot of people who have had problems with it. Good luck Barbara - can't that damn Obama care help out???

  6. Querida Barbara, siento tristeza al encontrar tu blog y leer esto, ojalá que todo se vaya solucionando y estés mejor.
    También quería decirte que adoro las imágenes de tu cabecera de las puestas de sol, y la foto que recuerda a tu gato en la derecha del blog.
    Buena suerte, Barbara.


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