It is 3am, and I'm wide awake. A side effect of having more than my normal amount of coffee today. I used to be fairly addicted to coffee, drinking a pot (10 cups) a day, but now I drink maybe 2 cups. Today I drank about four.
The air is cool and fresh tonight. So thankful for that.
I have a new camera... a Nikon D800. It's a top of the line model, and a full frame camera, with a huge 36.something mega pixels. You can take photos in a FX format or a DX format. I got it with a prime 50mm lens, 1.4, which I'm happy to have... haven't had a prime lens since my old film days.
The thing is, though, that I haven't been out with the camera yet. I'm kind of intimidated by it. Have got to get my feet wet with it, though, and I hope soon.
I've stopped wearing my wig (as you can see in a pic of me in the last post). Got so tired of it, and now that it's getting warmer, I certainly don't want anything covering my head. I am even liking my Annie Lennox look... something very liberating about it.
Hard to believe that nine months have gone by since I was first diagnosed with cancer. The days seemed to disappear, really. But I remember being sooo tired most of the time during those chemo days. Geez.
Now I just have to find out when my "exchange" surgery is... when they exchange the expanders for the breast implants, and you get your foobs (fake boobs). That's major surgery again, and will be glad to get past that, because it will the the sort of end of a long hard road. I got through it okay with a little help from my family and friends.
Sometimes I feel guilty staying up so late. I don't know why. I can almost hear my mother calling "I hope you shut that light soon", as I stay up late in my room, the light peeking out from under the door... enough to assault her senses at such hours.
Today I should not feel guilty at all. I kicked cancer's butt, and I deserve to do whatever I like for a while. If I want to sleep into the afternoon tomorrow, so be it.
Oh wow, I started reading over my novel tonight, with a critical eye! Yikes, am I ever going to have to do some serious rewriting. There is quite a bit of "telling" in the book, when I should be showing. That alone will be a tremendous task. If I do that, it may even be a good novel.