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Wednesday, July 24, 2013

a week of grieving

Last week I posted that my cat, Little Guy had died, and to tell you the truth I was a little taken aback by how few condolences I received on that post.  I know I have reached out to many of you who have had pets that passed.  Only my friends Stephanie and Mim left a comment to heal me.  I am thankful for them.  Surprised by others of you.
What I didn't write was the terrible way in which Little Guy died, and that was that he was killed by my other cat, Morrison, who is still quite feral, despite having been here for 4 years, when I took him in as a stray.  I came home to Little Guy dead, and I will spare you the gruesome  details, but suffice to say that I am still grieving.
At first I wanted to kill Morrison myself, but then I decided to put him down.  Now I am wavering on that idea, and am thinking of keeping him after all.  He doesn't know the bad thing he did, and was acting out of instinct.  I have to find it in my heart to forgive him.
During all this my mother was admitted to the hospital with a bad decubitus ulcer (bed sore) between her thigh and buttock, and another on her foot.  Despite the fact that a nurse was there every other day to change the dressing on the ulcer, it got to a point where the bone was exposed and she was finally taken to the hospital... how it went so long with no one noticing is beyond me.  Anyway, she had surgery, and is doing well but will have to go to a nursing home for about 3 months for rehab and wound care.  She is thinking that she will not be going home but will become a resident of the nursing home.  My sister is thinking that will happen, too, but I am holding out hope that she will be able to go home with the help of her aides and all.  I'm just afraid she'll deteriorate in a nursing home.  I guess time will tell.
It has been a hard week, and I sure hope that some lighter times are on the horizon.

14 comments:

  1. Barbara, I am so sorry to hear how your cat died. Man that must of been bad to see that. Cats do things on instinct without realizing that it was bad of them to do that. I am speechless at this. Hope every day gets better for you in the grieving process. Our pets are family. And your mom, wishing her speedy recovery. Sounds painful. Hopefully she will be able to go home again. Sending you lots of {{{{{Hugs}}}}}}

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    1. Feeling the hugs from here, and thanking you, Stephanie.

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  2. AnonymousJuly 25, 2013

    Geez, BArb I wrote something and now its completely out of my head, short term memory loss strikes again. I truly hope that all the bad stuff that's been happening will pass and you will remain strong. I know it very hard. I truly wish the images of Lil Guy will be happy ones to replace what you saw. Ask God everyday to help you remember your friend in the happiest way of all the good time you shared, and know that one day we will all romp and play together will all of our pets that are hanging out with our Dad. Love you so much Barb, Tree

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    1. Thanks, Tree, I love you so much, too. Thank you for always being there for me.

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  3. sorry to hear about your cat. It is sad to loos a companion. :(

    About my Ghosts, I have added a link to Bildverkstan. There you can see how I did this.
    http://nfverk.blogspot.se/2013/07/how-to-create-ghosts-in-tub.html

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  4. Barb - I've been having problems sometimes when I go to your blog - maybe others are having it too. Your blog disappears and suddenly another web site shows up - weight loss or something was all I saw. I think there might be a virus.

    Sorry about your mom - those can be nasty! I hope rehab helps, and that she recovers.

    Take care

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    1. Thanks, Mim. Yea, I don't know what's wrong with the page... a blogger bug, I suspect.

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  5. Barbara, I am truly sorry for all the bad things happening in your life. Just know that God knows all and He is a good God. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

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  6. AnonymousJuly 25, 2013

    Hi Barbara,
    Seems like it's been a few months since I came to look at your blog. I actually got on here about 2 days ago and was horrified by your post and I had to just close it down. I thought I should come on today and say something. I've been having the same problem Mim above has written about. I thought it was a problem with whatever computer I was trying to access if from. Mine or my daughters. I gave up after awhile and finally decided to try again. I'm so sorry for your loss. I've lost enough pets of my own and know it hurts so much. Especially when they don't pass peacefully. I didn't realise cats could be so vicious or that they were capable of doing enough damage to kill one of their own. I hope the pain you feel is replaced with fond memories of your LIttle Guy. Please send my best wishes to your Mom and tell her I hope she feels better fast and is home again soon. My mom just came home yesterday after bouncing around from hospital to rehab to hospital to rehab for the last 4 months. Tell Mom that the will is a powerful thing and to do everything they tell her to get home soon. Linda

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    1. Thank you for your words, Linda. I will tell my mom you were asking for her, and you tell your mom I was asking for her, too. I hope she is coming along better now.
      I don't know what's wrong with this webpage, sometimes it disappears on me too, but I have no idea what to do about it.

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  7. Oh Barbara. I am so sorry for your loss. Especially sorry for the tragic nature.... I cannot imagine how to rationalize something like that. My little calico died in my arms about a month ago, but of natural causes... I couldn't let her go. I kept her body with me for a full day before laying her to rest in our pet cemetery.

    You're right... brighter times are always on the horizon, but I think it's just fine to befriend darkness for as long as one needs.

    Sending healing prayers for you & your family...

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  8. Been out of town for awhile no internet but that page thing has been going on for awhile now Barb. Sorry about you cat but the feral one nope I would have it put down or any other pet you bring in it will be just as territorial.

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